5 Ways I Prepare For Birth

Birth is no joke. Arguable the hardest thing I've ever done. As I approach my 3rd and potentially last Birth I've been really trying to mentally focus on ways to make it as positive as possible. I think one of the most important things you can do to support yourself in pregnancy/ Childbirth is to find a provider that you resonate with and that you feel safe with. It is such an intimate thing to go through and I can’t imagine not having a relationship of support and care from my providers. I have always looked for hospitals that are baby friendly or that are working towards baby friendly designation, just as a baseline of care for me and my baby. I also look into hospital/provider cesarean rates, to find providers that know how to work with women’s bodies and emotions to prevent unnecessary interventions. I personally choose midwives, perhaps because I was born at home with a midwife so it seems normal to me, but also because they are caring on so many levels. They take time in prenatal appointments to ask about other elements in my life (i.e how my other children are sleeping, what schools are on my mind for Jeff for next year) because they care and they know that pregnancy isn’t the only thing on my mind. When I leave my appointments I feel as if they care and want to help me have a successful, happy pregnancy and delivery too. No matter who you choose for a provider or what avenue you choose for birth , these are the 5 main things I have done with each or my pregnancies to set myself up for success:

  1. Realistic Labor Expectations.

    I have gone through 2 unmedicated labors so there is no denying the intensity and pain involved. I prefer fast & furious (albeit painful) to long and drawn out but pain free. For me, it's mostly a control thing: I want to be in control of my body. Having never utilized an epidural or anesthesia, I have no idea how my body would react and don’t want to try anything new while going through labor. I also belive in movement while in labor, using gravity to help the baby descend the birth canal. I have birthed all of my children on hands and knees with my upper body elevated on a raised hospital bed. This position has helped relieve pain but also works to open the pelvis to allow the baby space to descend and turn.

  2. Chiropractic care/acupuncture

    I have used both the chiropractor and acupuncture in pregnancy and believe they both have helped. I've used acupuncture after miscarriage to balance out hormones, I've used it leading up to birth as well. In fact the first time I ever went to acupuncture was for a pre-labor treatment with a specialist in San Francisco. I was 39 weeks pregnant and I distinctly remember her asking if I wanted “to be put into labor". I said no, as I just wanted to prepare my body but thought it was incredible she knew pressure points to do such a thing! For this pregnancy I've been getting chiropractic care and have really enjoyed it. It has relieved back and hip pain for me, helped turn my baby head down after we discovered it was breech at 33 weeks and also prepared my body and pelvis for labor and delivery.

  3. Read birth information/ Birth stories

    For this I highly recommend Ina May Gaskin's Guide to Childbirth book. She has a lot of information in there about the body and what it goes through during labor, examples of different positions and techniques, and quite a few birth stories as written by women who birthed with her. The first time I read these stories when pregnant with Jeff I was stunned at some of the hippie/crunchy stuff. But ultimately it was beneficial because it showed me what could be normal in a labor. Another resource I've used is an English site “The Calm Birth School". I followed them on Facebook to see positive affirmations of birth as well as positive birth stories (both on their website and podcast). The more I read about birth and spoke to women who had positive birth stories, the more confident I became in my own ability to have a positive birth.

  4. Exercises

    For all of my pregnancies I have tried to walk 2-3x a week leading up to my due date. I have also used a large exercise ball for each pregnancy to do hip circles daily, stretch my back, and lean on it on my elbows/forearms to strengthen them (especially since I have always buried birthed on hands and knees so I need the arm strength). For this pregnancy since I had experienced a 3rd trimester breech position I got into the habit of doing exercises from spinningbabies.com such as hip circles, lunges and side lying stretch.

  5. Diet

    Dates & Red Raspberry Leaf Tea. Towards the end of my 3rd trimester I start to consume both dates and red raspberry leaf tea daily.

Preparing For Baby: What You Really Need To Know

Pregnancy is such an amazing time. I loved knowing that there was a little life inside of me growing and could only imagine the new life and love I would have upon welcoming my own baby into the world. As exciting as it was, it was also at times equally as daunting. There are so many questions surrounding this time of life: What is it like to become a mother? What is it like to become a caretaker for a small baby? Will the baby (and I) both remain healthy during the pregnancy and delivery? And speaking of, what is delivery really like?

There is so much more to know than just what to put on a registry. When the baby shower is finished and the nursery set up, a mother's responsibilities never really ease up. 

Spend more time researching and deciding your preferences than designing a nursery. This is important because truly, all you need for a newborn are a few outfits and a lot of diapers. Babies need mothers to nurture and care for them, not a perfectly designed reading nook in a room they might not sleep in for a year. Instead, focus on what type of labor and delivery experience you'd prefer, and what you'd like your postpartum experience to be like. Most women will suggest that you not worry about labor and delivery, and just "go with the flow" but in my opinion the more going with the flowing you do, the less empowered you will become as a mother.  You will likely be tired, in pain, and overwhelmed during labor, so it really isn't optimal to make decisions under such duress. That's when other people's suggestions and opinions overtake your birth story. 

The more you know about pregnancy and the labor and delivery process the better.  I don't mean research everything and send yourself into a panic over every little possibility, but rather attend a birth class or a La Leche League meeting, watch Rikki Lake's documentary on birth here, read Ina May Gaskin's Guide to Childbirth (my fave) and check out on blogs on the topic: Natural Mama has had 6 children and a variety of births (including at home, a cesarean, and a breach!) and her narratives are always informative. You can also read my empowering birth story here. The more you read about birth, the more normalized it will become to you. Try to seek out positive birth stories so that you can create a positive narrative surrounding birth, there is already so much fear surrounding a normal physical even in a woman's life, so it's best not to add to that natural inclination.

I once heard that birth isn't just the delivery of a baby, it's also the birth of a mother. The experience is also there for us as women to enter into the world of motherhood, so why can't we find joy and empowerment in it? Instead of dreading childbirth, wouldn't it be nice to view it as a special day where the little life you grew was brought into the world by your strength as a woman?

Once you have researched your options and figured out your ideal birth situation, it is a good idea to sit down and put that onto paper. I don't mean make a 2 page list of every detail,  I also think that those sorts of birth plans set women up for disappointment. If your birth doesn't go exactly as how you wrote it, it will be disappointing to you as a new mom. Instead, check out this checklist and make note of what's ideal for you in each category. It will likely make you aware of what's really important to you as you go down the checklist, do you want to receive visitors right away or would you like some space? Do you have an opinion about circumciscion or who announces the gender of the baby? Or is it more important to you to focus on if you're allowed to move around the room or what the hospital offers in terms of pain management?

Beyond the birth, you should also plan for life after birthing a baby. This is something I didn't prepare for well, and I really regretted it. I went to a few information sessions about breastfeeding but didn't really know much else about it. I also was completely unaware of baby's sleep patterns during the newborn phase or even what time of comforts I would need to support my pelvis and vagina after delivery.  These things made my time postpartum so much more difficult. After delivering a child you can expect to be exhausted, hormonal and overwhelmed with as much joy as there is angst. It can be a dauntint time, going from a woman to a mother, a role you can never 

 

 

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My Car Accident

After around 19 years of safe driving I experienced my first accident. I was driving towards the Milford Oval when I turned a slight corner and noticed a gold car waiting to turn left out of a church parking lot. As I approached the lot I thought there’s no way he'll would turn since I was driving on the road. Unfortunately he never checked left (he was looking right to see when traffic coming from the oval which was the opposite direction would clear up). As I approached the parking lot, suddenly I saw his car jet forward in front of me. My first thought was “this isn’t possible!” Followed by “I'm going to hit that car". I slammed on my brakes but he was too close and I was driving around 30 mph on the road.

I hit him with my passenger front side to his drivers side. Luckily neither of us were seriously injured, and more importantly neither of my children were with me at the time! My airbags went off and as a result I suffered a concussion from the impact or my head hitting the airbag. I noticed smoke coming out of my air vents and turned off the car. I called 911 and got out of the car. There had been a man exiting his car garage across the street who witnessed the crash. The police came and got our statements. The other driver said “I'm sorry, I looked left, I looked right, I didn’t look left again". He said he had insurance (not mandatory for some reason in NH).

Turns out, his policy had been canceled due to non payment so in the end my insurance will have to absorb the cost of my car (which was totaled).

It was such an overwhelming and scary event, I'm so glad it wasn’t worse, but it definitely rattled me. Having a concussion was one of the strangest things I've gone through. It really shows you how much your brain does every single day. My brain was in a fog everyday for about a week, throbbing if I did too much, looked at screens, or went outside without a hat and sunglasses. My ears would ring if I clapped too loudly for my kids (turns out I clap for them a lot while they play haha, I noticed this everyday as I recovered, how much my own clapping hurt). More on my concussion here, I never really understood what having one was like, but in the words of my brother when I called him to ask what the symptoms were “if you think you have one, you do". You can really feel your brain hurting, it's so strange!

I have to say I was really impressed with our insurance, they were very kind and professional. They gave us a fair evaluation for our car, now we’ll have to go car shopping! Here are a few pictures from when we went to clean out the car of our personal belongings, interesting to see how the airbags deploy!

Saying goodbye to our great family car, thankful for my health and that the kids weren’t with me during the accident, and hopeful we find a new car!

Jeff’s Birthday (aka What To Gift A 6 Year Old Kid)

Jeff is into all things science and sport. He’s shown a particular interest in soccer and asks to play every evening in the back yard. So for his birthday this year we purchased him Pugg Soccer nets and Rustoleum Line paint to make our own backyard field. It’s October now and we’re still using these daily. We also have and love these soccer kits from h&m and have good luck finding cleats at local thrift stores.

For science things, he loves the dig it kits (both for fake Dinosaur fossils and gemstones) and is currently hoping for this rock polishing kit for Christmas.

For 6 year old boys you can never go wrong with lego kits either.

Happy 6th birthday to my big boy. He is so sweet and I am so proud to be his mom.

4 Ways To Use Magnesium (Pregnancy Safe!)

I've been using magnesium for about 5 years now and love it. I started off by drinking Natural Calm which is marketed as an “anti stress drink" as a new mother.

I find using magnesium to be relaxing due to its use in regulating muscle and nerve functions. But it is also a nutrient utilized in our bodies to help regulate blood sugar levels, making it helpful for curbing late night cravings. I have a cup of raspberry herbal tea almost every night with raspberry-lemon magnesium and honey. Its such a relaxing routine.

Some of my favorite and most used magnesium supplements

Some of my favorite and most used magnesium supplements

During this most recent pregnancy I have also used a magnesium enriched coconut lotion nightly, made by 8 Sheep Organics. I find it helpful for relaxing muscles (restless legs, sore back) as well as for stretch mark prevention on my stomach.

I highly recommend incorporating magnesium into your diet (but start slow--too much can cause frequent bathroom trips, eek!). It is estimated that around 50% of Americans are not consuming enough magnesium, which is typically found in leafy greens, so it is a great way to add that nutrient into your daily diet.

Paris Murders and Other Things I'm Into Now (April)

THE PARIS MURDERS

I haven’t had a favorite show in a while. When I “get into a show" I become unnodadated with it, obsessed and basically feel like the characters are my friends. Possibly crazy, but it is kind if a rush. I've struggled to really get into the most recent Netflix specials (Gunny & Georgia, You, etc). The last show I truly loved and cried over was Schitts Creek. So it’s been a long time coming.

I randomly came across The Paris Murders on Amazon one night. It is gripping! It follows a police precinct in Paris as they unravel and inevitable solve strange murder cases. The main character is Chloé Saint Laurent a criminologist who uses psychology to figure out the cases. I will warn you, some episodes are completely disturbing, but I love the psychology behind it and, of course, hearing the French. I'm in need of practice so its been perfect for me! I only wish they had more seasons available in the U.S

GUA SHA & FACE EXERCISE

I randomly came across face yoga via Instagram. I have a few friends who are into botox and I've always considered it for when I'm done having kids, but once I discovered face yoga I thought I might as well try it in the meantime. It makes sense to me to exercise the muscles of the face, to lift them and try to release tension (aka wrinkles). I asked for a Gua Sha for Christmas…an ancient Chinese jade tool. I love it.

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Reading

I just finished The Book of Two Ways by Jodi Picoult and What Alice Forgot by Liane Moriarty (author of Big Little Lies). I preferred What Alice Forgot, it kept me guessing the whole book, while also being fairly light and entertaining. It follows a 40 year old woman Alice trying to piece back together her life after a fall makes her lose her memory. So good!

I admire Jodi Picoult as a writer so much, her ability to weave such intricate stories, compelling characters and a topic she has intensively researched is like no other. The Book of Two Ways was no exception to this. I was overwhelmed by so many in depth topics in one book (Ancient Egypt, physics and a death doula). Not my favorite of hers (I still love you Jodi!), but a decent read.

Getting Ready to Garden

Green is making a reappearance here in New Hampshire. The weather hasn’t really turned too warm: lots of 50s/low 60s but also a fair amount of rain ugh. I'm thankful that we’re out of the 30s/40s…what a cold winter…but really I'd like to live at 75°. I'm a freeze baby and winter is too long. Anyway, I'm looking forward to gardening and have started prepping already. We cleaned out the beds, added some composted manure and new soil. Last week we planted our snap peas, excited to see how our new pea towers work. I saw these connectors on Amazon and they make it so easy to connect the bamboo poles. Last year I was so unprepared for the peas to climb that I had to makeshift a trellis by stringing string all over the garden bed. This is much cuter and way more efficient.

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Christmas 2020 Recap

Whew, we made it to the end of 2020. While I’m not so sure all the drama and stress will be left behind, I do have so much to remember and be thankful for. Christmas went extremely well at our house, we had a happy relaxing day and all got something we really liked.

In the morning Jeff ran out to check his stocking. I kept it extremely simple (this was our first year doing stockings), a pair of Smartwool socks each (found secondhand at Mother & Child!), bath crayons to share and a kinder egg chocolate. He ran into my room and said “Mom! There’s socks in my stocking!!!” Simone and I joined him in the living room where they happily ate their chocolate for an early breakfast. It was so sweet to see such simple things bring them joy.

They each received a baby doll from the grandparents. Simone received a mini sling for her dolls and a cradle as well. Jeff received a hotwheels race track he’s been wanting and a wooden barn with some wooden animals in it to share. Erick received some new hockey gear and a roku for our tv. We got our tv in 2013 when we were first married so the apps have mostly stopped working due to not being compatible with the “old” tv. We’ve refused to buy a new one when this one is still functional, so we’ve basically only had access to Netflix for the last few years. A friend of mine recently asked why we didn’t just try to use an Amazon firestick….and I realized we could do that, hahaha. So I got a roku since we use those tvs up north in our condo and are comfortable with them, also also because I’m totally spooked by amazon listening to us in our home and refuse alexa, lol. Anyway, we are in heaven over here having access to Disney +, hulu and showtime, we’re back in TV watching business!

I received a sweet bracelet from Jeffy that he bought from the TJ Maxx jewelry counter back in August with my sister. He’s had it wrapped and hidden in one of Erick’s drawers since the summer, so sweet! As a big present from Erick, he renovated our (only) bathroom, which was a real gift because we have been working on this big old house and condos up North over the last 3 years, but haven’t taken the time to do much inside our own apartment. I LOVE it. It’s exciting what a little paint and wainscoting can do! I’ll update later with a post of the completed bathroom.

We had a nice dinner and gift exchange at my parents house. I made a delicious salad from Half Baked Harvests Super Simple Book. I’m really loving her recipes and how she seems to make elevated comfort food easy to do. I

We Made A Compost Bucket

I even had Jeffy help me, which he loved because he got to use the drill on his own for the first time. I helped him with each hole he drilled, but he was able to hold it independently. I’m also glad that I had him help because I think it was important for him to go through the process of building it with me to learn about composting. The whole premise behind composting is creating less waste (which I’m into) and creating a soil/fertilizer for your own garden or yard (a bonus!).

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How To Make a Fairy Garden With Boston Children’s Museum

We filmed a quick 3 minute video detailing how we normally build our fairy gardens, in cooperation with Boston Children’s Museum. I feel so thankful and honored to work with them! Once you get your kid(s) started, they'll know how to do it on their own, allowing them to be creative and self entertained in the yard. The best part about it is that it brings you together for simple, enjoyable moments with your kids.

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I Lied To My Child About Covid19

So far yes, I’ve lied about the existence of the coronavirus to my child and I'm proud of it. I believe it is my job as a parent to ensure my child's safety and wellbeing. By staying home and practicing social distancing I am keeping him safe. By avoiding telling him the ins and outs of the virus, as well as my own anxieties surrounding it, I am protecting his mental wellbeing. I want my son to look back on this time of life and no nothing different. He was home. He was safe. He was loved. And we were happy.

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Best Toys For A One Year Old

My college roommate and I had baby girls about a month apart. She texted me today asking for indoor ideas for one year olds. At this point we’ve been at home for about a month, and it doesn’t look like Covid19 is going anywhere, fast. So we chatted about our girls’ interests and some of the best activities for them and I thought it might be wise to jot them down here so I don’t forget!

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5 Great Toys For ONE Year Olds

My college roommate and I had baby girls about a month apart. She texted me today asking for indoor ideas for one year olds. At this point we’ve been at home for about a month, and it doesn’t look like Covid19 is going anywhere, fast. So we chatted about our girls’ interests and some of the best activities for them and I thought it might be wise to jot them down here so I don’t forget!

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Christmas in January

Last Friday we flew to Minnesota for a belated Christmas celebration with Erick's family. For us traveling with two small kids, it was great to avoid the busy holiday rush at the airport. Both times the airport was easy to navigate and neither flight was full, giving us extra space on the airplane (always a plus, especially with kids). In a way it was nice to spread out the holidays and celebrate Christmas again.

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Halloween 2019

I didn’t grow up celebrating Halloween. Well, not in the normal sense anyway. My parents would take all of us children (did I mention before that I’m 1 of 9?!") out for pizza and then give us candy before bringing us home, having missed the trick or treaters that surely would have passed by our house on our small New Hampshire town’s hayride.

I didn’t really think much of it, as it was all I knew. I got candy and didn’t even have to work for it! But it has creating a bit of a curmudgeon in me when it comes to Halloween

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How To Help A Friend Who's Miscarried

October is Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Month. For me it’s always nice to see the facebook and instagram posts from other mothers, showcasing their support and experiences. As someone who has miscarried, it’s something that never really leaves you, even after you’ve had another baby and have appeared to “move on”.

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